Um, yes.  It has been awhile, only 10 mths to be exact since I’ve written anything on here. I’ve been….busy?  I’ve decided, with some help of an encouraging friend (thank you Jen), to try to pick up where I left off.  Well, kind of.

I’m starting off small, and I’ll go from there.  I think I have just become an addict to many of my friend’s blogs that I decided mine was too boring or something! Well, no pressure. It is what it is, like it or not.  More to come soon, by soon I mean sooner than 10 mths from now. I think that’s an appropriate goal🙂

Welcome Back!

Yes, I am still alive! Things are going good here on the homestead with the two boys…well, three if you count my hubby. We are all getting used to our new addition and the juggling act that it takes to take care of a toddler and a baby at the same time! It is a challenge! We have friends that have kids spaced about the same as ours, and they assure us that the first 18mths are really hard, but that after that it does get easier…18mths, wow, that seems like a really long time.

Being a mom to 2 kids now really makes me admire and respect all the other parents, especially moms, out there in the world who have paved the way and survived. I must say that I am thrilled that I really feel like 2 kids is going to be it for us, and I can’t wait to sit back now and watch the rest of my friends and family have their children instead of us. Maybe now some of them will understand.

Oliver is doing great, still sleeping quite a bit and nursing alot, like every hour to two hours. He is still having lots of waking up/awake time at night, and mom is still a coffee drinking zombie. He is gaining weight really well, last week he was 8.7, and I’d guess him pushing at least 9lbs now. His little bloated belly is hilarious. Ok, laundry is done spinning, gonna hang the sheets out on the line today to get that extra fresh fall smell.

Much to our surprise, after being admitted to the hospital again after another bleeding episode, my body decided to kick into labor all on it’s own and about 3 hrs later we were blessed with our beautiful new son, who we named Oliver. He was born Sat, Sept 27, at 5:47pm, weighing in at exactly 7lbs. Even though he was only 36 weeks, he is very healthy, lungs are working great, nursing like a champ, sleeping and pooping and peeing like a champ as well. We feel very blessed and lucky to have had everything work out so beautifully. I could go on and on, but now since I’m the mother of two…my computer time has to be quick. So for now I’ll post a few pictures and will recap later when I have more time..(if that ever happens..)

Ethan getting to know his new brother

Ethan getting to know his new brother

Loving the blanket his mommy dyed for him!

Loving the blanket his mommy dyed for him!

Adorable little tongue

Adorable little tongue

Agh, do you have to use the flash dad?

Agh, do you have to use the flash dad?

Got the call today from my midwife after she consulted with the specialist, and was determined by both of them that it indeed to risky to go forward with a homebirth at this point. I feel like I am processing all this information with a very open mind and open heart, and feel good about the decision. Of course it is a pain in the butt to now try to find an OB who will take me on and which hospital we will choose, etc…oh, and not to mention the whole no Maternity coverage health insurance thing…but I believe it will all get worked out in the end.

Some things in life happen for reasons unknown to us, and I can either be mad and fight it, or process it and move forward with a positive outlook. I choose to move forward knowing that I am a strong, intelligent woman, who will birth this baby just fine no matter where we are at.

So I could dedicate an entire post to my trip to the ER last Tuesday and the 2 nights of hospital stay that followed, but I am not going to. To think back to it all the time brings me stress, and stress is what I am trying to stay away from from now until my baby decides to be born.

Right now I am 35 weeks along, and 37 is considered “full term”, and safe time for having a home birth. We still really want to have a home birth, but there are a few things we need to find out from the specialist over at Methodist first, just to make sure that that is still a safe option for both myself and for the baby. I know that bleeding is something that no one wants to see in pregnancy, and up until now, I’ve never had to deal with this rollercoaster. Since Friday morning I have pretty much been “blood free”, and now this morning there is some brown spotting. Not alot at all, but it is there. At least it is brown, and not red. I just don’t know what is considered safe, or normal, for me right now, so it is easy to get worried about anything. As long as my baby is telling me he is fine, that is reassuring. He is still actively moving and is head down. Taking care of a toddler and trying to take care of yourself is not an easy task. He still likes to be picked up from mom and dad, only now, mom is saying NO. Like right now, I feel bad that he is sitting in front of the T.V., but I just feel really limited to the activities I can/should be doing with him right now…a little T.V. over the next couple of weeks is not going to kill him, right?

I have been journaling about all of this, and it is helping me process it all and working through it. I just felt the need to get on this morning and write a little bit to “get it out” and move on with my day.

Today we drove out to our favorite Organic Apple Orchard. This is a tradition that we’ve done every fall since Gabe and I started dating. It is run by a really cool, homeschooling, homebirthing, family that we’ve gotten to know more each year. Their property is beautiful. I should have taken many more pictures of other things besides us petting the goats, but well….Ethan was slightly difficult and this was as good as it got today. We are going back in about 3 weeks for their first annual “applefest”. We will also get our pumpkins and squash from them when we return. Here are a few pictures of Ethan, who was looking adorable today I must add, with his ma and his ba visiting the goats.

Last night I went to a group Blessing Way Celebration. It was at a local yoga studio here in town that is in a beautiful house. There ended up being 4 of us pregnant gals plus Sandy, the leader, so it was a nice, intimate group. It really was wonderful. For 2 hours we listened to Sandy read to us beautiful affirmations, meditations, poems, even a song…acknowledging the inner strength in all of us. There were tears shed and stories told, it was simply wonderful.

Today I started collecting things to put on my “birthing alter”. This is something new I am going to do for this pregnancy. It sounds wierd, but it it is really quite simple. I have space set aside on top of the baby’s dresser where I am collecting things that are sacred and meaningful to me during this time. Some items from the Blessing Way last night, his first little cloth diaper he will wear, his first little booties and onsie, words of encouragement written by my sister-in-law, a candle, just to name a few. I am putting together a collage right now of words and photos and other inspiring things that I am going to hang above the space. I even asked Gabe if he will participate and do some artwork on the collage.

I am currently reading the book Birthing In The Spirit, which is proving to be a perfect read for this time of my pregnancy. I really do feel at peace, positive, happy, and very serene right now. I would really like to carry this attitude with me over the next several weeks, and even spill it over onto my friends and family.

This is the phrase I’ve heard from my hubby about at least a couple of items that I’ve cooked in the past week. See, 2 weeks ago I started making and freezing about 2 main dish meals each week to reheat and enjoy after this baby is born. So each week when I sit down and do my weekly menu planning for our family, I always include at least 2 things for dinner that I think would be excellent nourishment post partum. Plus, with fall like temps hitting us early this year, it seems that most of these things are very “homey” as well.

It’s just interesting that I am in the full swing of nesting right now, and loving it I must add, and I feel like there is just extra “love” in everything that my hands touch right now. Including my cooking. And, I have to say that in my opinion, I have one of the opinionated, critiques of a husband who would tell me the truth about how something tastes whether I want to hear it or not. Last week, it was my spinach lasagna that he was in awe of, and that, we now have 2 pans of in the freezer, and tonight it was my scalloped potatoes and ham that he said was the best he’s ever had..(not even that I’ve just made), and that we have one large pan of for the freezer. I just think that there is some kind of magic in the air right now, and I can’t quite describe what I mean..Gabe thinks I’m just hormonally supercharged and as high as high can be. Whatever it is, I hope it sticks with me for the rest of this pregnancy, and I hope the “crash” won’t kill me.

Fun at Greenwood Park

Fun at Greenwood Park

Sporting his "Choo Choo" Hat

Sporting his "Choo Choo" Hat

Yes, we broke down and bought tickets to go to Boone and ride the train. This is not just any ‘ol train ride though…this is a train ride pulled by Thomas The Train himself! Ethan LOVES trains, we are going through a major train phase for a while now, and we couldn’t pass up the opportunity to take him to see Thomas and the rest of the train crew. It’s not for a couple of weeks now, but we got the tickets today, and let me say..it wasn’t cheap, but he’ll love it. So…Choo Choo here we come!  Pictures and recap to follow!

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